A dream

Today I remembered a story of a young girl asking a beautiful young boy, " Why do you love me?" The young boy answered " I don't know." The girl asked again , "Surely you know.. You cannot love a person without knowing why!" After a while the young boy replied " I love you because you make me angry and happy at the same time.." The girl said" Isn't that dangerous? We will fight always." The boy says" Fighting makes our life not boring". The girl kept thinking and said " We are very different like the earth and the sky. You are the earth and I am the sky. We are ying and yang.. Can we be happy?" Lastly, the boy says " Yes we can because we complement each other.." The beautiful boy hugs the girl to reassure her....

Everybody deserves to be happy and second chances. I hope Allah grant me that wish. I am a dreamer and hopes one day happy endings do happen .. Allah is always be with those who believe that things happen when Allah says "kun fayakun" Till then I will always pray for a better future...................

Today because I was too worried about the present I for gotten Allah; I forgot my Subuh prayers.. Today I felt uneasy. Ya Allah forgive me as I am your lowly servant. For this I dedicate lyrics of a song to you..

Aku ini.. adalah dirimu
Cinta ini adalah cintamu
Aku ini .. adalah dirimu
Jiwa ini.. adalah jiwamu

Rindu ini adalah rindumu
Darah ini adalah darahmu

Tak ada yang lain selain dirimu
Yang selalu ku puja
Ku sebut namamu
Di setiap hembusan nafasku
Kusebut namamu
Kusebut namamu

Dengan tanganmu aku menyentuh
Dengan kakimu aku berjalan
Dengan matamu.. ku memandang
Dengan telingamu ku mendengar
Dengan lidahmu.. Aku bicara
Dengan hatimu ..aku merasa


Please give me strength and courage...........

I am not your enemy

Never wish to become your enemy. Never wish for you to dislike me. Please don send me away. I am human.. Through this journey both of us suffered. Allah is angry at me for my sins. Allah shows me that only through by remembering God there would be peace of mind. But Still challenges ahead. I am not forcing anybody to sacrifice. I also wants everybody to be happy. Please forgive me. I will pray for everyone but at the same time my heart cry as well cause I am only human.Please forgive me... I miss the smiles...

Remember the song Beautiful Maria

You are still my my handsome prince...Please don hate me.. It hurts..

I know my wrongs..

I cannot undo the past.. i can only improve in the future.. I cannot undo my feelings.. I just cannot stop feeling.. For those who believe love will subside.. they are very wrong.. my father died when I was 15 and I still have nightmares about it. In trying to love someone I have lost myself .. Lost my dignity and my pride.. people want to move out of your life and you can only feel lonely. I thought I am tired of crying tears but tears kept coming..I can only take what I am able to take ... The rest is just fate.. I have a new fate and will suffer through this one.. But if god have mercy on me .. please take me to happiness.. I want peace and I am very tired.. Whatever it is I will swallow as it is my own doings..I will cry until I am too tired.. Other people may condemn me but I am too tired.. I will need a rest.