Second Chances

Mujhe Maaf Kardo Jo Kuch Mainey Kiya
Bahut Sukeria Mujhe Dobara Muqa Deyna Ka,

Ab Hum Aik Dusrey Se Aur Be Ziada Piyar Karey Gey.
Aur Achi Zindagi Guzarey Gain,

Main AP Ku Bahut Piyar Karte Hon.
Zindagi Bhar Karte Rahon Ge.

Lelaki terindah

Suatu Ketika dulu
Aku pernah dihanyut asmara,

Tapi tak pernah ku tenggelam
Kerna kekuatan cintamu
Menjadi perahu dan dayungku

Hanya engkaulah yang mampu
Melenyapkan ragu menjadi tahu
Memupuskan kelu menjadi deru

Hanya engkaulah yang bisa
Menghadirkan tawar menjadi rasa
Menghadirkan tiada menjadi ada

Kerna engkaulah

Lelaki terindah dihidupku

- Andrei Aksana- the singing author

Mothers Day, Fathers Day and Brothers Day

This entry I dedicate to my wonderful son name Raidi who is mature wiser beyond his age. You see Raidi loves to draw pictures of houses with a father, mother and 2 boys. As I was telling Raidi this weekend is Father's Day , he was asking me when do we celebrate Brothers Day? I told him a few weeks later. Raidi will call me every day to ask me what time I will be back. He is a lovely kid and considerate when he wants to be. Raidi collects robots ranging from cheap ones to few hundreds. He is my shopping partner since my good friend Jua already got married... But Raidi accompanies me not without a catch.. Of course I have to buy him something.. I hope when he grows up he will think of me as the mother who is also a friend not the nagging mum. I think I will surprise him 2 weeks from now with a Brothers day..

Feeling lonely and missing somebody

When I think of you,
I think of pillows you use to throw to me,
How the throw was exact,
And mine was not...

When I think of you,
I think of the comments on how my make up was out of place,
So that made you my make up consultant,

When I think of you,
I think of the beautiful boy never the man that you have become,
So that made you my beautiful boy...

When I think of you,
I think of your wisdom and your knowledge,
Since you read more newspapers than I do,
So that made me somehow naive...

When I think of you,
I think of your smile,
How I wish you will smile more for me..

Then when I am alone,
Waiting for you to come home,
I could have swore I heard your laughter,
Made me feel brighter...

Becoming 30

Yesterday I celebrated by 30th birthday. To those who remembered thank you for the wishes... Below is a poem in a foreign language...


Tum Pagal Hor
Main AAP Se Piyar Karte Hon!
Main App Se Maafi Chati Hon To Kuch Mainey Ghalat Kiya
Ab Naraz To Mat hona
Main Bahut Khush hongi Age Ap Meray Dost Banjaye

I pray that everything will get better and that I will be a happier person.

Changing for the better

As I am going through a phase of change in my life, I am more sensitive towards what others feel. Anger is what have not control me anymore. That, being replaced by sense of regret and compassion. Nevertheless, once in a while i remember hurtful moments and the only cure for that is chanting asmaul husna.. and remembering that every action there is a reaction or consequenses and that I have to accept things for what they are are......patience does have its rewards and that everything that happens with a reason . Life goes on no matter you like it or not but God is always there listening...It is important to have your love ones around you....