My trip to China and Hong Kong

It has been a long time since I have a written an entry. This trip lasted 6 days and 5 nighsts. Only two nights in China. It was really a tiring trip. I collected many fabrics. Also tried on many designer clothes..but of course tak beli. One dress or skirt or top costs around HKD 6000.. Emporio Armani was impressive.. If I could I want to work there sometime soon. I celebrated my birthday there too (Harbour City).. No cakes or presents just wishes and friends.. China was dirty though infrastructure is there.. Hong Kong is happening hell.. KLCC is just small.. Have to consider customer buying power overthere.. I am fed up with my life here.. I am 31..still not sure of my path.. still have doubts bout my marriage.. still bluurrrrr3xxx. Nevertheless, when I look at my sons' eyes.. I must have done something right in my life.. Maybe not in the choice of my life partner. Somebody once said you have to strat to forgive yourself then only you can forgive others. Once I reached KL, reach home.. I felt I wasted time too much already.. In this near future I must move on..perhaps more selfish ..not to think of others anymore..do what I want.. not what others ask to.. I need to value myself more.. During this trip I realised that I am attractive after all.. hahaha.. nak perasan lah niii..Sometimes being 31 you get attention from younger ones too.. nie dah episode desperate housewives..kuakuakua.. no more comments on this. I saw this one episode of Nip/Tuck; The lady therapist slept with Mcnamara's son.. and her son was the same age.. Suddenly, I just realise..age matters..but to a certain extend you let it matters.. I felt more attractive than I ever had in many years.. maybe if things don't work out.. I may be somebody's Puan Sri.. hehehehe.. dreaming again...