Being there for people who have been there for you

This entry is for my teacher who is also a father for me. you see I am so occupied with my own problems till I fail to see that others need me too. Cikgu Ridhwan was there for me during my father's funeral has guided me through my studies till I got my 7As in my SRP. All my school teachers thought I was going to flung my exams as i got 15/100 for my math and barely passed my other subjects. Now standing in a hospital room 16 years later reminded me that we sometimes waste time for no reason. I told him my life was falling apart and he simply said that "You got to be strong" the same thing he said to me 16 years ago. The only thing is that he is weaker and thinner. I told him not to leave me as I will not have anybody else to turn to. I could not control myself as the rest did cause you see he was there for this girl that my mother herself was too busy to notice my grief. I have no energy to fight and will accept fate as it is. My prayers will be for him as he has been for me during my worst period. Allah works in a mysterious way. Through this event I saw all my friends and remembered those days when we were fifteen again. Cikgu was energetic and funny. He used to say that Algebra comes from Al Jabbar. And often asked questions like 1/0 is how much. The answer to this question is infinity. He always wanted to complete his degree in engineering but never did. He was an inspiration to troubled teenagers like me. Again today I felt like a child who is too scared to lose her father again... may he recover soon and able to finish his unfinished tasks. A wise woman once told me and I may have quoted this in my other entries that Allah only test us according to our capacity not beyond. The only thing with mankind is Al-nafsi which or who is within us to influence our actions. Al-nafsi was punished for thee thousand years before being put in the human body. The dark side/ weak side of us is often influenced by Al- nafsi and the devil. So much talk on mankind..I really hope one day he will be okay... Amin